Dear Blog,
Alright, so here's the lowdown. I just recently got rapidly and seriously involved with a guy I dated for a year in high school. He's the most amazing guy. I know everyone says that so stop shaking your head. The way every girl wants to be looked at, and treated, and loved, and talked to, and respected is the exact way he looks at, treats, loves, talks to, and respects me. If I were to draw out my ideal man, he'd fit it to a tee. I honestly would say yes if he asked me to marry him tomorrow. The problem is, I won't see him tomorrow, and at a minimum, not for a few more weeks. He's a new marine. He finished boot camp on November 20 and after it we got to spend five glorious days. During these days, I truly realized I never stopped loving him and that he just might be my soul mate. He's my best friend and we have chemistry like I've never had with any other person. I miss him everyday. I call his voicemail just to hear his voice. I haven't even gotten to talk to him in two weeks. The Corps. is supposed to let them call on sundays real quick, but last sunday I got no call. Tomorrow's another sunday, so I'm hoping and praying for the best. I'm so worried though. I'm so worried that I'm just caught up in all this. I wish the two of us could be isolated from everyone else in the world and it just be us. I'm so empty without him around. He's supposed to get break from Dec 29th until about Jan 15th and if that's the case, I will be the happiest person alive. If he gets break, I'm going to Boston (where he's from, his parents live there, but we met and dated when he lived in Florida). It would be the most magical time of my life to be in beautiful Boston with the love of my short life for New Years. I've never had a New Year's Kiss and I've got a good feeling I'll be getting it this year. The problem is, I won't know until I talk to him when/if he gets break. And on top of that, I have about $40 to my name. I found a round trip ticket last night for $276 which is totally reasonable, but my credit card's maxed out and I just came home from college. I'll be working at this pizza place I worked at before leaving for school so hopefully I'll get enough. Last night I also requested a credit extension on my credit card and I'm praying that I get it. I'll do anything to get to him. I love him so much. I can honestly say I could see myself with him. I could see us taking turns staying up all night with the baby, and making dinner everynight for him. I could see myself with him in a way I've never been able to with anyone else. I just had to get all of this out to someone/something that was going to be annoyed or talk back or give me a look that makes me feel like no one cares or that I'm simply mad.

good night, jm