Dear Blog,
Today was an interesting day. It started off horribly. My mom got my final grades for the semester and she was so mad. I cried like a child, because that's how I deal with things. Going back to my high school was a great experience. The teachers I visited had such an impact on my life, that I felt it was only right to pay them a visit and let them know I'm doing the best I can. My history teacher who literally inspired my career helped me a lot with what was going on in my school life. I'm off for another twenty days, but when I get back, I've got to have a plan to make things better. I plan on changing dorms, which is so exciting. I also plan on doing a lot more by myself because I'm such an independent person and it's difficult to be surrounded 24/7. I don't know how, but I've got to do everything differently.

So, another night, and no call. I'm not surprised, but still the disappointment hurts just as bad every night. I hope like hell I can see my Marine in roughly a week and a half. Wow, when I say it like that, it doesn't sound long at all. I miss him so so so much and I love him like crazy. This hurts so bad to be so far away from him. It's like, the weirdest feeling ever. You know, like finding the one you love, the one you want to be with more than anyone on the planet, and then you still can't have them even when they want you just as badly. I just hope he's thinking about me on his lonely nights as much as I think about him.

Blah, good night

jm