Dear Blog,
So my mom just found out my final grades for my first semester of college. I got an A, B, C, D & an F. Cute right? I cried terribly when I saw this. I don't know what to do with my life. It's like, I know exactly what I want. I want to be a high school American history teacher, I want to have a husband who loves me unconditionally and in the old fashioned way that matters, I want 2-4 kids, a girl named Lilianna Lauren and then another named either Savannah Sarah or Julianna Jaquline. Boys names, I haven't a clue, but I have time for that. I just know that I want to live up north and be surrounded by family even though all of mine lives in Florida. I want Christmas to feel like Christmas for once and for my children to know what seasons are. Either way, I know exactly what my ideal future looks like. The problem is I can't manage time or money and I fear that I'll never get to where I'm going. My mom is irate about my grades but truth be told, going to a huge university was such a shock to my system. I haven't really given the college life a fair shake though I have to admit. I've been judgmental and hateful from early on. I'm getting ready to go visit my old high school history teacher. He had the same problems I'm having and ended up dropping out of college but went back eventually. I'm hoping he has some words of wisdom for me.

disappointed.